While I adore the rain and drizzle, I find that accompanied with dark and troubling times in everyday life, for longer than geographically normal, it gets overwhelming. Life becomes The Dark Cloud Looming Syndrome.
In more ways than one.
Times like this - the uncertainty, the not-knowing - the waiting - make me realise just how much I'm a creature that has to have things "settled" - in mind and deed. Truth be told, I'm concerned about both of my parents, and there's not much I can DO, - especially just yet. And that, my dear Watson, is a formidable thing.
Their care from here on is a major concern to me. It will involve and affect all of us. It already does really. The coordination of visiting, picking up, dropping off, helping in other ways - is constant and has to be planned and executed only after consultation with the Machinist and Young Adults.
There are still times of mental mayhem. Guilt driven pandemonium. I have, I think, always honoured my parents in deed, but not always in my heart.
Is this common, I wonder?
It's difficult to get on with things at home, even the fundamentals, as I'm expecting to be disturbed, interrupted. Not necessarily in a bad way, but it does affect momentum and achievement.
My Mam would often sing this song as she was doing her housework. I loved to hear her sing it.
Look For The Silver Lining by Judy Garland
As I wash my dishes, I'll be following a plan
Till I see the brightness in every pot and pan
I am sure this point of view will ease the daily grind
So I'll keep repeating in my mind
Look for the silver lining
Whenever a cloud appears in the blue
Remember somewhere the sun is shining
And so the right thing to do is make it shine for you
A heart full of joy and gladness
Will always banish sadness and strife
So always look for the silver lining
And try to find the sunny side of life
So always look for the silver lining
And try to find the sunny side of life
